To be honest with you, it’s been painful. Questions like, “Is this your only child?” hurt. Surely they don’t mean anything by their questions, but they sure feels loaded with accusations.
“You should have more.”
“If you really valued children…”
Then there were the more pointed ones that cut deep. The things you should never say to a woman.
I’ve shared our story countless times. It felt raw, because it was. It felt painful, because it was. It felt unfinished, because it was.
And just at the moment where we were resigning ourselves to believing that our chance to have another biological child was complete, we got some pretty exciting news.
We are pregnant!
Which is unbelievably exciting! I can’t tell you how much we’ve waited for this time.
But we’re battling our fears, even now. We’re in to the 2nd trimester (due October 11), but knowing how the last pregnancy ended, we know it could happen again. We know that we could lose this pregnancy like the last one. And we desperately don’t want to experience that again.
My wife and I have prayed more during this season than we ever have in our lives. It’s caused us to lean in to God and trust Him, because we honestly don’t know what else to do.
In fact, there’s nothing else we can do. It’s completely in God’s hands. Completely. There’s no medical procedure we can do, no precautions we can take, and no safety measures we can put in place. We’re doing everything we can…but it’s not enough.
Life is in God’s hands. We know that. We’ve always known it. But now, that truth feels palpable. Every time I look at my wife’s belly, I’m reminded that God is the author of life. He’s the one that knits us together (Psalm 139:13), and nothing happens outside of His plan.
We covet your prayers. More than anything, we’d beg you to plead to God on our behalf: preserve this young baby’s life.
If you’ll commit to praying, I’d love for you to leave a comment below. That would mean a lot to me and my wife.