Moses is one of my favorite heroes in the Bible. Partly because of the danger surrounding the time of his birth. Partly because he was an amazing leader. Partly because he got to part an entire sea.
But mainly because I love how real Moses appears. You get to see Moses’ humanity throughout his story. The fact that he’s weak, doubts his call, and still messes up gives me loads of hope that God could use me despite my weaknesses, doubts, and failures.
God called Moses to lead the oppressed Israelites to freedom from their bondage to Egypt, and Moses doubted whether this would work. After all, he was just Moses. And Pharaoh was the most powerful man in the world.
In Exodus 4, so God could prove to Moses that He is who He says He is, God asks Moses to throw his shepherd’s staff on the ground. When he does, it turns into a snake. He then asks Moses to pick it up by the tail. Not the head. The tail. (For the record, I have some level of faith…but if you ask me to pick up a snake by the tail, I’m out. Call someone else.)
Moses picks it up, then God tells him to put his hand into his cloak. When Moses pulls his hand out, it’s leprous. God instructs Moses to put his hand back in his cloak, and when Moses pulls it out, his hand has returned to normal.
Cool story, no? Crazy miracles, no? Moses had seen two miracles, right before his eyes, but still responded with this:
“O Lord, I’m not very good with words. I never have been, and I’m not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled.” – Exodus 4:10
Sticks turning to snakes. Hands being turned all crazy. And Moses still doubted? Doubted that God could use his bumbling mouth to lead a people to freedom? Doubted that God could do what He said He’d do? Doubted God would come through for him?
Yep. Moses listened to the voice of insecurity.
Because Moses thought he was still operating in his own power.
Insecurity does a great job highlighting weaknesses and isolating you from Truth. Moses was weak, and on his own, he would surely fail. Before the most powerful man in the world, Moses would just curl up into the corner and cry, being constantly reminded of how weak and “unusable” he was.
Good thing for Moses, though, he wasn’t going alone. He was simply a mouthpiece for the living God.
We are Moses
We’re no different than Moses.
We see miracles all around us. We see God healing people (often through medicine). We see God reconciling marriages. We see addictions broken. Hearts far from God turning back to Him. Sons returning home. Fathers owning their responsibilities. Mothers selflessly giving of themselves. Walls coming down.
We even see God using us to bring about change in others. We see God working miracles in our own lives.
But we doubt. We wonder how God could ever use us. Just like Moses did. We feed our insecurities and doubts, relying on our own strengths. We remind ourselves that we’re
- funny looking
- worn out
- too messy
- still in process
So how could God ever use us?
Because God says to you:
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. – 2 Corinthians 12:9
It’s not about your strength and your gifts and your ability to lead. It’s about you trusting God to do what only He can do.
Your insecurities are a chance for God to show off through you. To remind you that it’s not about you.
Ready to fight doubt? Ready to defeat insecurity?
Take a step of risky faith.
And listen to the voice of God, not men.